söndag 4 december - första advent - Why do I have to be so fat? Why do I like to eat shitty unhealthy non-foodish stuff? Why do I feel so terrible about myself? Why AM I? All these things. Worthless, hopeless, sad... I don't really deserve anything so I shouldn't feel bad really. But I do.

You know what I want the most in this whole fucking world? I want to be a drummer, have a band, write songs, reach out to people. And not live here. But I can't have that, can I? You can't have a band if you're alone. FUCK THIS!